Not much to update lately so I'm just going to do a picture update!
Jimmy and Kylie
She is always smiling like this! It is great.
Alana helped me make a personal pizza for her!
So big.
My husband ready to go off to his softball game
My husband and I are silly. We play the lottery in the hopes of a better life. We've won $50, $100, and $500. We've just never won a jackpot.
However, today I thought I'd won something. You all know those sweepstakes right? Find this symbol on one of our candy bars and you win? Well I had the bat symbol on my KitKat bar. I was happily eating away at my chocolaty delight when I saw the bat symbol. I thought it was cool and I showed my husband (at this point I had eaten almost half of it). I kept eating and as I was getting toward finishing it I looked at the wrapper "FIND THE BAT SYMBOL AND WIN!" I dropped my candy. All this time of playing silly games trying to win something and what do I do?? Eat away my proof the one time I win! I couldn't believe it.
So I frantically try to do some research into the game. I still had some bat symbol so maybe it would still count? Well my research revealed something to me...I hadn't won anything! As it turns out, finding a bat symbol means you can enter the sweepstakes for a CHANCE to win! Oh and you can enter for free online. Hershey...you tricky little devil you.
I guess we are back to the occasional lotto ticket here and there...I mean, who knows, right? Somebody wins, it could be us!
I haven't been able to find my camera for a few weeks now. I think my husband put it somewhere. I am NOT happy! Anybody with infants knows it is important to capture a lot of pictures because they are changing all the time!
I want to take pictures constantly, but I can't. Today I had my girls dressed up in matching polka dotted pajamas and matching pink slippers and I wanted a picture so bad! It was adorable!
...guess I'll just have to force my husband to remember where he misplaced it...drives me crazy!!
So the other day I was at my Mom's house because Jimmy had a softball game and needed a shower after (We don't have hot water anymore, but that is a whole other rant) and she decided that she wanted Taco Bell. I offered to pick it up for everyone and so I took off and while I'm waiting in the drive thru for my food my car looks like it is smoking a bit and is making funny noises. My dashboard says I need oil, but I had just filled it up a few weeks ago and didn't drive so much that I'd be out, so I figured the warning light was broken (the car is 20 years old)
I got my food and headed back to my mom's house. As I'm taking a sharp turn up a hill, my car dies. It has never done this before and the car actually has a good engine so I don't understand it. I tried turning the car back on and it worked. My car stalls out 2 more times on the way back, but I make it!
After we eat, I decide to try driving home because I thought my car was just stalling out when I stopped and I could start it back up no problem. Well it stalled 3 times on the way home and wouldn't start up after the 3rd time just 1 minute from the house! Did I mention that this was midnight? Luckily we had both cars (my crappy 1988 Camry and my husband's nice 2004 Matrix) because I wanted to go to my mom's before his softball game was done. So I went to his car and we called my mom to let her know what was going on. She said my brother had jumper cables so I try calling. No surprise, he was asleep. So I try to start the car over and over, not knowing what to do. We were concerned that if we left the car there it would be towed and I'd be fined...I can NOT afford those kind of fees!
So a couple must have heard us (my car was making funny noises) and came out. The man said he had jumper cables and so he went off to get them. While he was doing that my husband drove back to the house to get a container of oil. We open the hood and see that my oil cap is missing. This confuses me because I did NOT forget to put it back on. Not to mention that even if I had, I had driven around enough that something would have happened DAYS ago! It just doesn't make sense why it is gone! Anyway, we fill up the oil and jump start the car. It sounds normal now and I drive home. I was so nervous driving home! It was all uphill with no streetlights and a bunch of trees...so it would be creepy if I stalled there. My girls were so well behaved. My car was probably on the side of the road for half an hour and they didn't complain once.
Well...I don't know what what to do now. I can't afford to fix the car if there are problems, not to mention repairs would probably cost as much as the car is worth. I am scared that I may have damaged part of the car and am scared to drive it even though it starts now. I also was about to go look for a job...now I have no ride to work!
This is a nightmare.
Here are some nice p
ictures to lighten the mood...
I really have to try to remember about this blog! I keep forgetting to come in here and update...I'll try better!
Here's some random info
I was just thinking that I should probably post some more details on my life!
Back in 2005 I got pregnant for the first time. I was 18 years old and felt so ready to take on the world. My then boyfriend, Jimmy, and I were going to celebrate our first anniversary together on October 25th. We had planned to go to the same restaurant that we had our first date at. It was a very nice dress up type restaurant. Japanese cuisine. He had planned on proposing to me here, however it didn't quite go as he had planned.
A few days before our anniversary we had both gone out to get our gifts. I kinda knew the engagement ring was coming and so I headed to the mall for Jimmy's gifts...one being an engagement ring of his own. It was a gorgeous (in a manly way, of course) gold band that cost me over $100 (a big deal to me at the time). I also got him a sword. Sure it sounds random, but he's always liked those swords you see in those Asian stores in the malls. It was a good gift for him.
I don't think I've mentioned at this point that I hate to wait for things. Waiting is one of my pet peeves. It seems that every year for Christmas or birthdays I give Jimmy his present before the actual day and talk him into giving me my presents early. This is exactly what happened. The day I got him his present I wanted to give it to him. I was still nervous that maybe he wouldn't propose and I also didn't want to take away his moment by proposing first. So what I did was tell him I wanted to give him his presents so we should just exchange that night. We'd take turns and I'd go first. Of course I gave him the sword first. He loved it. He then went into the nightstand and pulled out a box and proceeded to propose. The ring was beautiful. After I calmed down I went and got his ring. I explained how I didn't think it was fair that only a woman got a ring to show off the engagement. Needless to say, he was happy. It has been so long that I don't remember every detail, but I'm sure we had a happy ending to our anniversary because my first daughter, Alana Amber, was conceived around that time.
Alright...I'll continue on with my story next time. I'll leave you all with some pictures.
the ring
June 2005. My senior prom.
It would seem as if I'm still suffering an aftershock of birth...Post-partum depression. This is a very difficult illness to handle. I felt as if I couldn't deal with it on my own and spoke with my obgyn about getting help. She perscribed Zoloft. "Great", I thought, "I'll get better". Not so much. It seems as if this medication does NOTHING! I keep wondering how likely it is that I was perscribed a placebo...I'm not sure how else to explain the lack of...ANYTHING from this medication!
I hope that I can either get some help that actual works or have the strength to ride this wave till it is done....I know I'll be Ok...I just keep saying that.
Here is a picture of the beautiful baby that created this stress...
I would rather deal with 100 years of feeling like I am today than never have her. She really is amazing.
-Sarah
